i opened myself after the first time someone shattered my heart and destroyed me. i tried again but the same thing happened but this time it was worse he used me, i dont care if i play him out to be a monster because thats what you were. you intoxicated my mind and made me feel less human, i want to die each and every day because of what you did to me. physical abuse is bad dont get me wrong but emotional and verbal abuse is what destroyed me. you cant throw people away after wasting over a year of their time, but you threw me away a while ago you just didnt admit it because you wanted to fuck me and keep me around for your self esteem. i gave you my all in every single way you can possibly think but i learnt one thing is that you can love and give someone so much and they will never appreciate it and will never love you back. if anything trust me they’ll use you up for all your good because they know you and they know your heart, they know they can because they know you’ll let them.